I wish I could say I've been on maternity leave this last week, but that isn't the case at all. In fact, I went to work full-time all of Wednesday, Thursday and Friday of last week. To be completely honest, I was less than thrilled to be there. It was a great conference, but I had to bring Gloria with me on Wednesday and let me tell you, conferences are QUIET and I felt horrible any time that she made the slightest peep. She is SUCH a good baby, but babies do make noise and they do require time. On Thursday and Friday, I had Evan's Mom here to watch Gloria and it was really hard leaving her. It was the first time I had been without her and I just wanted to get home to hug on her more.
This week, I've worked a few hours everyday and brought her to work with me. I'm just trying to get things ready for school starting and trying to make sure everything is in order for the first couple of weeks (until I return and have her in daycare).
Going back to work made me realize that I really had to get this daycare situation in order. I've had a hell of a time finding decent daycare in this city. From what I figure, Little Rock has two GREAT daycares for infants and the wait list on them is insane. I put Gloria on the list when I was 11 weeks pregnant and was no where near the top. Had I know, I would have put her on the list when we were TTC! Sounds ridiculous, but that's the way it is. In another life, I'm going to open a QUALITY amazing daycare. It isn't even the price ... I just want a place that is worthy of my children. Believe it or not, I don't mean a palace. I mean a safe, nurturing, and educational environment.
We ADORE ADORE ADORE (yes all 3 in caps is necessary) where Liliana is now, but that took time to find (if you recall, we had a horrible experience at the first daycare we had her at here). Unfortunately, her current school starts at 18 months. It's a Montessori school and we have had ZERO complaints with them since she started there 9 months ago.
Last week I went to the daycare where I planned on putting Gloria. When they took me to the room I saw a baby with poop ON HIS FACE. ALL over his face. When I mentioned this to them they said "don't worry, we change every hour and he'll be changed in thirty minutes." Yes they were going to leave that baby in his crib with SHIT on his face for 30 minutes. I showed them the check in my hand, and swiftly walked out. I made a statement. I don't care if I seemed overbearing, but I refuse to let my child be at a place like that.
I had attitude ... big time attitude in front of them. But the second I got to the car, the water works started. Being a working mother is stressful sometimes (ok all the time) but the last thing I want is to feel guilty for working. And leaving here there was NOT AN OPTION. I would have rather stayed home.
When I was at the conference the head of our upper school heard my story and the next day she told me "I made some calls. I got her a spot at a great place."
No it isn't one of the two "go to" places, but I toured it and it's pretty great. I thought about taking Liliana out of her current place to not have 2 drop offs in the mornings, but I couldn't do that to my Liliana. She's just too happy there.
So for now, I'll have a pretty long commute to do this, but it looks like Gloria will move in January to a place one block away from Liliana's.
Ultimately, we've got something settled for now. And I won't feel guilty. I'll have to leave earlier than I'd like, but we make sacrifices as parents and I am glad things are resolved for now.
BUT ... I still have 24 days of leave left (well, semi leave ... as you can see, I've still been working) and I plan to cherish time with my two gals as much as possible.
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